I tried it your way but I got nothing to show

I tried it your way but I got nothing to show

Day 1 - A letter to your best friend

So:  I've had this challenge saved in a document for awhile now, and the reason I haven't done it is because of this first letter.  This is something that I've mentioned before but never really discussed - I don't have a best friend.  I don't know if I've ever really had a best friend.  I just close myself off to that, to confiding completely in someone else, to trusting someone else without a doubt. 

Which is a problem, I guess.  And another is the fear of being judged, which is something that I'm dealing with.  Trying to deal with.  I dunno.  I never really know, do I?  Maybe that's the problem. 

Love, Natasha